"Dad, I need to get tags on my car because they are up this month, but in order to do that I have to change car insurance companies, then get a South Carolina Drivers license."
"That is more permanent, if your only going to be there for a year you won't need to do all that we can renew your tags here in Kansas, but are you thinking of staying longer?"
A Long Pause....
"Yeah I am" There the decision was made in one moment my move to the south became permanent. I felt I could here my dad's heartbreak with mine on the phone.
In the course of deciding to move out to South Carolina my dad and I discussed how long I would be here. I would just try this for a year and take it one day at a time. If things go well with the school and I love what I am doing then after my school year I would stay. But, it was inevitable I had fallen in love with what I do daily and the Lord was showing me that I would not be returning to Kansas after the year was up.
After I hung up with my dad, I cried. I miss my father, friends and my community. I miss the feeling of always being safe and fully loved. "Lord, Am I making the right decision?"My answer came quicker than I thought.
Today during Communion one of my young students was taking communion near me. I look up from prayer and see his little head bowed in a state of prayer and reflecting before he partook in the sacraments. My heart was humbled and at that moment God confirmed the decision for me to stay out here. Then after church I was blessed with the opportunity to host a pot luck with some of my church family at the house I am living at. As Louis Armstrong played in the background while women and men where talking around me my heart felt even more blessed. I carried a little boy around on my hip who belonged to a little family who were visiting church today and was so blessed by his smiles. Again my heart was comforted. There will be times of sadness and yearning for those I love back in Kansas. Yet, I am excited to see the Lord slowly building up community around me and seeing him work through the humbled prayers of a little boy or the tiny smiles of an infant. I have made the right decision"Praise God Through Whom all blessings flow!"
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